It’s so hard to put in to words what I’m feeling today. I suppose it’s largely disbelief, entwined with gratitude and heartbreak. You had such a dramatic influence on my life, and it’s strange to think that I no longer have a physical being to thank for that. Instead you are a legacy, and more devastatingly, a memory. You, David Bowie, shaped the very person I am, and you left us yesterday. I’m struggling to come to grips with that.
I was thinking about your music the other day, and just how many of my memories involve you. From playing your music at dinner parties with the people I love or on the bus trips in to school, to watching Labyrinth more times than I could count. You were, and continue to be, such an enormous inspiration to me. Your music is still the most played in my entire collection. You taught me, and the rest of the world, that who we are is more than enough.
You lived so many different lives. Ziggy Stardust, Aladdin Sane, the Thin White Duke, Halloween Jack, The Goblin King, Major Tom. You said once that you were a collector, but while other people collected stamps or coins, you collected personalities. Each one just as incredible as the last, and each one still wonderfully you. Thank you for showing us so many aspects to yourself.
You were a lot of things to a lot of people. A mentor, an inspiration, a therapist, a parent, a muse, a rock, a friend. Amongst all of this, you were always one of us. You lead such a huge wave of people on a journey of love and self-acceptance, just by being exactly who you were. You were so gloriously, inspiringly, gorgeously, unashamedly you, and we love you for it.
You said goodbye in Lazarus before you left us, and we’ll all be so very grateful that even at the end, you knew we care for you. It’s hard, watching the video and listening to the song in retrospect, but at the same time it brings home just how lucky we are to have loved someone so special.
I had a drink for you last night. A lot of us did. And I’m sure that wherever you are up there you knew. We are so lucky to have existed at the same point in time as you. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
The stars look very different today, because you’re up there, shining your crazy light on us all.
Rest in space.
“I don’t know where I’m going from here, but I promise it won’t be boring.”